N Thursday, May 18, 2006
haiis haiis haiismahh first f9
nt a gd sign
sadz of coz
bt do i reali hv da right ta b sadz wen i din reali studi fer it
i did try ta studi
i did try ta lik da subj
bt i failed
failed terribly
i din perform fer tis mids
MIND MI IM SEC4 NW N NT SEC1!!
y do i kip wastin mahh own time doin stuffs tat r nt worthwhile??
y do i kip tinkin tat der's lotsa time fer mi ta studi real hard??
y do i kip findin so mani excuses fer mahhself??
i put blame on others n nt mahhself
y??
y cant i b sensible??
y do i hv ta wait til sum1's mad at mi b4 i start doin da stuffs im suppose ta do??
nt oni fer tis subj other subjs r juz
RUBBISH as well
i tried holdin back mahh tears
i told mahhself nt ta tink too much
i duno how long i can hold back mahh tears
bt y do i kip tinkin abt all tis??
i juz cant help tinkin abt all tis
bt wad fer??
wad's da pt of tinkin tis nw wen all tis is over??
REGRETbt wad's da pt??
chers tried ta encourage us by sayin we sldnt let ourselves b affected by our results
BLUFF BLUFF BLUFFi noe i sldnt giv attitude ta those hu din made mi angri
da real person hu made mi angri is
MAHHSELFi can oni b angri at mahhself fer nt studyin well
hu can i blame bt mahhself
y do i hv ta wait til da results r back b4 i can start workin hard??
last min work wun help
ppl can gt gd grades bcoz tey work reali hard fer it
hu m i ta b envious of em??
ppl wun tel u how much effort tey hv put in
u juz hv ta c their results
their results prove everiting
wad abt mine??
im juz a loser wif terrible grades
i seem ta take tings too easily
i dun seem ta noe da consequences
i juz
SUXy cant i control mahh own temptations??
y muz i depend on others ta help push mi along??
REFLECTIONSany use nw??
i duno
how im gonna fare fer o's n other exams depend on mahhself
tis i noe
bt y had i bcum so lazi??
wen did tat happen??
y din i realise??
IM SO STUPIDI JUZ SO HATE MAHHSELFIM PISSED OFF WIF MAHHSELFA SUCKER HEREi can cheer everi1 up except mahhself:'(
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